But now I'm having doubts.
Almost all of Abigail's therapists discuss preschool at almost every one of our sessions even though we already agreed that she will be attending. Abigail is really high functioning and most of the time kids who are doing half as well as her are phased out early. I fought to keep her in-home therapy, but it's like everyone is shocked to still be working with her. I used to hear about preschool two hours per week, and even though they sliced her hours down, I still hear about it 1 hour per week every week and 2 hours per week every other week. I'm so
Shortly after we walked away from the tour with the decision that she would attend, I started getting doubts. She's still so very young. She'll only be three. She's not potty trained. Her communication can be difficult to understand. But I remembered back to the classroom and felt comforted.
But then the therapists started talking about the bus. The
You wouldn't think the bus would matter, but everyone is making it clear that it
And my doubts kept growing. Am I being over protective? Can a person be over protective of a child so young? What would happen if we post-poned preschool for one year? Just one year to let her grow and develop just a tad bit more? But when I think back to the classroom, my brain knows that she will thrive in such an environment.
And then I started filling out the paperwork for the big meeting next week when we'll transition her to the school system. (We'll transition her in May to start in Aug/Sep because Michigan's summer services are awful and she'll be too old anyway). Forms that want to know exactly who is living with who and how everyone is related to one another. Concussion acknowledgement forms. Forms that ask me in a dozen different ways what languages we speak at home. My heart started panicking again. I shelved the paperwork.
So this is my brain's argument:
Abigail will thrive in preschool. She will miss you, but she will love it. The teacher is great at what she does. Abigail will learn so very many new skills. This program will really help her reach her potential. Preschool is good for Abigail.
This is my heart's argument:
Abigail is way too young to be sent away from her family for so much time during the week. She is still too vulnerable - relinquishing so much parenting to a government entity at such a young age puts her at risk. Post-poning school by one year will not damage her potential, but instead give her time to mature so that she is better able to handle the challenges of the classroom.
My gut says:
Hey, let's switch sides every couple of days.
Hence why this issue of preschool is still not resolved for me.
We are proceeding as if we are going to send her because it is way easier to transition her from at-home therapy to in-school programs than it would be to end her at-home services on her third birthday and re-enroll her in the fall. Or, it will be easier to change our minds and pull her out of school than it will be to change our minds and enroll her.
Ample more time spent in prayer, thought, and discussion is needed before the fall arrives.